What's My Gift?

Recently, I listened to our children's pastor tell a group of kids that every single one of them had a God-given gift waiting to be discovered.  I believe him.  In fact, I know it to be true, way down deep, in my know-er.  Of course, God has placed a unique gift inside each of us, and fully expects us to discover it and utilize it for His kingdom.  But, as I sat there, just as intent on what he was saying as the fifteen or so children in the room, I couldn't help but do some self-examining.  And I asked myself the same question that I've asked many times before.

What is my gift?

I'm 37 years old and I truly do not know.  It can't be anything too incredible or I would have found it by now.  Right?  Or am I blinded to the truth by my insecurities, my past, my many failures?  .

Wouldn't it be ideal if we were just born with a clear-cut label?  You know, a stamp on our rear that said something like: ARTIST, MUSICIAN...FINANCIAL WIZARD.  Psshh....well I know that's not what mine would say. 

But really, though.  I am a decent writer.  I can carry a tune and somewhat sing parts if I try really hard.  I can read like it's nobody's business.  I'm slightly ok at motherhood, but I certainly don't deserve a cape.  I love acting and I feel like I'm not too bad at it.  Do I feel particularly gifted in any area?  Honestly, no. 

But, if it's true that each and every one of us was born with a gift, then I must have one.  Apparently, I just haven't been able to dig it out yet.  Why is it that some people live these amazingly talented lives from childhood, but others have to really dig deep to find their gifts?

Don't get me wrong...I'm happy for all of those people out there!  Where would we be without them?  And I don't have this burning desire to find my gift so that I can be noticed.  I just don't want to miss out on doing something special for God with my life.  If there are things he intended me to do, I want to do them!

So, how do you discover your hidden gifts?  That is the question on my mind and the one I intend to focus my prayers on for a while.  I'll let you know if I come to any new revelation. 

Until next time...